I don't know if I've mentioned it before, but because of both my injured arm and ... well, the other stuff that happened in November, I decided to postpone Nano. Which means that I'm writing now. Or should be at least? It's not going as well as I hoped it would but what else is new :D"

Hence: PROCRASTINATION SKETCH-TIME! YAY! Click to enlarge. And don't you dare laugh at my attempt at drawing a goddamn horse www





It's probably my favorite work by Goethe, not counting Faust. Don't ask me where this came from because I wouldn't know how to reply. I'm just as clueless www

Oh! Today I was visited by two old friends ♥ I can't believe how much fun I had in only a couple of hours. It's really weird. I've made good friends here in Hannover but that's nothing compared to the people I've been with for years. Next week during my break from work I'll most likely visit with them again as well as with another old friend. wktk D: GUYS I'VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH ♥ SFJ FOR LIFE! :D

/insanity

Tadaima! I don't want to bore you with the details, but it was exhausting and expensive.

Truth be told, I've really hit the "mourning nau." phase of this mess. Now that everything is starting to settle down and I get a bit of time to myself, I'm really starting to remember all of his good sides and certain events where I felt very happy and all "Ah. I'm his daughter after all wwww". I can't say that I miss him already or anything because as I said, we haven't been in contact recently so nothing will really change, but... Before, I think that there was always this backdoor kinda thing in my mind. I chose not to be in contact with him. Now I couldn't do it, even if I wanted to. That is finally hitting home, as well as a couple of other things. Like, I'm starting to feel regret for not being more understanding of some stuff and I mean. Our last conversation was a huge argument about money. Or maybe it was about money as a front and about other things when you looked deeper into it. Actually, I don't care - it was an argument and we both left angry and haven't seen each other since. Tbh I can't even remember it very well anymore. My last clear memory is of him standing in my tiny kitchen in Bremen, asking me if he could look into my fridge (which I thought was weird) and then laughing over the lack of choices. That was what started the argument at least, considering that my "lack of choices" resulted from his lack of child support OTZ Oh well. It's in the past.

Because I can't very well sit around doing nothing, as much as I wish I could, I've been keeping up with 2525 and ofc Skyrim a lot (which is awesome awesome awesome). More flaily posts later. Honestly, fandom is a great distraction and I think it's actually good that I'm going to work already again, even though it was hell today with how I was feeling. It can't possibly be healthy to mourn so much. He's gone, that's sad and tragic and really stupid but I need to accept it and move on with my life.

OKAERI, KUWAGATA-P. WHAT IS HAPPENING OMG. Tbh I was never that much of a fan but his new song blew me away. Interviewer is good and the lyrics are good and the PV is good and Kuwagata-P should feel good, too, because he just made me love a song by my least favorite ~famous~ Vocaloid (sorry, Luka. :/ I still love you).

インタビュア by クワガタP feat. 巡音ルカ


I'm aware that this wasn't the only notable song that was uploaded last week but I need to eat something before I'm off to work and typing coherently with one hand is getting taxing enough www Later!

They arrived :D Tbh since my eyes are somewhat dark for me being well, German, I always have a lot of trouble with finding good cosplay contact lenses. It wouldn't be so bad if I hadn't naturally awful sight, so I need lenses with my prescribed dioptre... There's suffering for cosplay and there's running around near-blind. I've made it a habit to always order a pair of the lenses I've set my eyes on way before the convention I want to wear the cosplay at. Like that, I can at least test the lenses and check if they're the right color - then preorder another pair of the same ones. It's probably a bit of a waste, but it amuses my coworkers who already play a "what color will it be this month" game www

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So, after almost two years of abstinence I have returned to the world of online blogging. Rejoice! It feels good to be back. I never knew that I was that much of an attention whore - I actually really missed it.

This is a personal blog. It's neither intended as summary of whatever's happening in the fandoms I'm in, nor is it intended to be a guide to cosplaying or whatever. You might still find elements of both, but that's because I like talking about the things I love. And I flail. A lot.

So, without further ado, this will be my next huge project. I have exactly 142 days left.



Yeah. I know. OTZ

I'll probably post about this again either later tonight or tomorrow, depending on how tired I am after having dinner. The plan is to start figuring out how to deal with the annoying transparent/pink shoulder protectors... Let's see how well that goes.